Been more than a year between posts. I haven’t forgotten you. I still love you.
A lot has happened in a year. A lot of good. A bit of bad. My main holdup was that my next post was going to be for what would have been Jeremy’s 29th birthday. I didn’t know what to say. Then I didn’t say anything. Then I felt like I missed it. Then I felt like I missed him. Still do. Then November happened. Then I had my second first Christmas without Jeremy. Then we couldn’t sell the house. Then I worked on cleaning out my garage. Then we sold the house. Then we filled up the damn garage again. Then someone broke the Interstate. Then, well, life and stuff.
I was thinking of what I wanted this blog to be. Then I got busy. Then, like any good engineer, I overthought it to the point of paralysis and I missed posting stuff for a whole year. And then, after all that, on the morning of May 12, 2017, I got a cup of coffee, checked to see what crazy stuff our President is doing, and logged into my blog. It’s dizzying, but just to drop a historical timestamp, he’s a couple days past firing the director of the FBI, on the heels of the FBI asking for more funding for the Russia/Trump investigation, which our President refers to in third person, and our President is deftly beating back any Nixonian comparisons by publicly threatening Comey about some “tapes” he may or may not have. I’ll have a scotch.
But the blog. Turns out, it’s just whatever I want to type about. It’s mine. Took me a year to figure that out. See? I’m smart and stuff. I put a mental block between my last post and the next one. Don’t know why. I felt like I owed my own blog an explanation. Then I worried about building my posts in chronological order so that my projects were displayed as they happened. I built some stuff, should I write my posts in order of how I constructed them and pretending I’m living my life a year ago? See? Analysis Paralysis.
Ultimately this blog about my projects and my brain droppings. This post in particular is just a rambling derp, and that’s the name for my new rock band.