Oh hi! Didn’t see you there

Been more than a year between posts. I haven’t forgotten you. I still love you.

A lot has happened in a year. A lot of good. A bit of bad. My main holdup was that my next post was going to be for what would have been Jeremy’s 29th birthday. I didn’t know what to say. Then I didn’t say anything. Then I felt like I missed it. Then I felt like I missed him. Still do. Then November happened. Then I had my second first Christmas without Jeremy. Then we couldn’t sell the house. Then I worked on cleaning out my garage. Then we sold the house. Then we filled up the damn garage again. Then someone broke the Interstate. Then, well, life and stuff.

I was thinking of what I wanted this blog to be. Then I got busy. Then, like any good engineer, I overthought it to the point of paralysis and I missed posting stuff for a whole year. And then, after all that, on the morning of May 12, 2017, I got a cup of coffee, checked to see what crazy stuff our President is doing, and logged into my blog. It’s dizzying, but just to drop a historical timestamp, he’s a couple days past firing the director of the FBI, on the heels of the FBI asking for more funding for the Russia/Trump investigation, which our President refers to in third person, and our President is deftly beating back any Nixonian comparisons by publicly threatening Comey about some “tapes” he may or may not have. I’ll have a scotch.

But the blog. Turns out, it’s just whatever I want to type about. It’s mine. Took me a year to figure that out. See? I’m smart and stuff. I put a mental block between my last post and the next one. Don’t know why. I felt like I owed my own blog an explanation. Then I worried about building my posts in chronological order so that my projects were displayed as they happened. I built some stuff, should I write my posts in order of how I constructed them and pretending I’m living my life a year ago? See? Analysis Paralysis.

Ultimately this blog about my projects and my brain droppings. This post in particular is just a rambling derp, and that’s the name for my new rock band.

– Josh


The Blog Recalibration Project

Well, a lot has happened.

Following our disaster, Sarah basically took over building the house. She kept things going while I floated between absolutely useless and marginally functional. Once I dipped my toe back into the fold, I dove into my job. I really do like my job at The Coca-Cola Company, it is always interesting and incredibly fast paced, so I let it take over as a fantastic distraction. I had project requirements that changed, key employees that found different opportunities, processes that evolved, and I really just let the work take over. I was needed at the office, and I needed it. Plus, I really like the people I work with. So I kept tabs on what was happening with the house, but it really became The Sarah Show. At this point, it’s more hers than mine, and I’m happy with that. I don’t quite think that she is.

In normal circumstances, I would have kept everybody up to date on the progress. I was excited to quip about granite shopping, or learning the word baluster. Obviously, that didn’t happen. But, this blog is for me, it’s for you. I’ve seen a lot of hobby-based blogs that have turned into an unfortunate chronolog of a dramatic family tragedy. In fact, if you scroll down, you’ll see that you’re reading one. So here’s what I am going to do:

I brought this blog online many moons ago to talk about my projects. Clearly, it took a turn. I’m going to go back to talking about my projects. I am going to give an update on the house very very soon. I am going to talk about Jeremy. I am going to throw in my experiences of going through loss, going through this year of firsts without Jeremy. He’s still my brother, but his voice has tragically been relegated to the ones that knew him best. I will have posts about him. I will have posts that don’t mention him. I will be open and transparent because dammit I write the best when I do. I will also probably write about the infuriating process I am going through right now where I have two servers, nearly identical, one for test, one for my production code; one successfully sends emails and one absolutely does not. This blog will be about me, and while I will focus on my projects, I am not trying to silo anything.

We will close on our new house tomorrow, Good Friday. I will be soooooooooo damn happy to be done dealing with Realtors, closing attorneys, builders, builder Realtors, and lenders. The builder has done an incredible job, and I am ready for the house to be our project. It’s going to be an emotional closing, for reasons I’ll talk about later. We’ll still have our current house, so I’ll be talking about getting that house ready to sell and going through the selling process too. Pictures of the new house are forthcoming. Pictures of the old house will be available once I move my boxes and piles and clutter to their new home. I don’t know the Vegas odds of that happening before the summer. I wouldn’t put money on April.

However, if you are invested in the timeline because you would like to buy my current house, lets work a deal. Fantastic schools. And I’m only moving down the hill about 1000 feet, so it comes with the world’s best neighbors. Case in point: can your current neighbors loan you a cement mixer when you’re in a pinch? No? Looks like you need to move.